Saturday, April 22, 2017
Tuesday, April 18, 2017
A lot of everything feels so dumb and pointless. That's just one side of the coin though. Everything is also just about infinitely possible. But you can't have everything.
Posted by Carol Roque at 12:05 AM
Friday, March 24, 2017
Sunday, February 26, 2017
Friday, January 13, 2017
Monday, December 26, 2016
Posted by Carol Roque at 9:34 PM
Monday, December 19, 2016
Monday, November 28, 2016
Posted by Carol Roque at 7:40 AM
Wednesday, November 02, 2016
Today I moved approximately 20 tons of gravel for the first time! Twice. I suspect this is day 33, but I stopped keeping count a couple weeks ago. It's been fun but also kindof exhausting and busy. Play hard. Work hard!
It's different and odd working for real money. I'm used to working on whatever I want, and hoping to get paid one day. All backwards.
Posted by Carol Roque at 3:18 PM
Tuesday, November 01, 2016
Wednesday, October 19, 2016
Just driving around with an empty truck bed, and being passenger while the truck is loaded. Learning is tiring. This fourty wheeler is a pain to learn well, like not really, but ishh is hard. Not impossible just not easy.
Posted by Carol Roque at 3:17 PM
Wednesday, October 12, 2016
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
Wednesday, October 05, 2016
Drove into a new mine today, just earlier. Got a "there you go, mam" after pulling in to pick up the buckets of fine rock or whatever it was. I just do as instructed. It was cool! Freeway pro and all. Downshifting better. Minimal downtime besides being passenger. And lacking some sleep.
Posted by Carol Roque at 10:23 AM
Tuesday, October 04, 2016
Timestamp the fuck outta this. Too many updates. It's true. For the Timestamp. No one reads this anyway. But I will make this find its way back to its original url. Simply brokeneyeball (Instead of *her* brokeneyeball). For my own sake. Etcetera. So I work now. I drive. I drove just now. Doing better with the gears. Doing better with the gears. Need to upload pictures with these stoopid posts. Gonna bring watercolor with me. And that new watercolor paper I've bought. I can do it. I can make crap work. See, keep them expectations low, and then when I actually put work to paper, maybe it won't fucken suck. 😬. Goodbye for now.
Posted by Carol Roque at 9:33 AM
I believe the day count is correct. I took last Thursday off, due to an injury. Today is Monday, and yes last week was definitely my first week on the freeway. Actually, today is Tuesday, but my dad needed the day off yesterday to deal with some stuff with my sibling and court.
Posted by Carol Roque at 6:23 AM
Tuesday, September 27, 2016
Monday, September 26, 2016
I believe. Wednesday I drove two more times than listed. And Thursday I drove twice. It was a short day.
Drove the fourteen wheeler right now. And picked up the rock at the (Red Mountain) pit! Still need a bit of practice catching the gears while downshifting at slow speeds.
Posted by Carol Roque at 10:03 AM
Wednesday, September 21, 2016
Just drove INTO (one of) the (materials) pit(s). From previous job site, surface streets light traffic, short drive, but I did pretty well. Into the pit! That's a first. Switched back to passenger's after pulling in, quite in, just before the stock piles of tiny rocks.
[edit: 11:45am] drove again, same destination, two hours later. From a different spot. I've got an itch to drive more more, I've learned and progressed.
I should be arriving home to finish that large painting soon. ASAP. Stop time today is unknown, maybe early. Find me on Instagram to see my story posts!
[edit: 2:58pm] another driving session. Thirty minutes.
[edit: 2:48pm] just drove again. Same drive as last. about half an hour. First time going four in one day.
Posted by Carol Roque at 9:43 AM
Tuesday, September 20, 2016
Monday, September 19, 2016
Wednesday, September 14, 2016
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Monday, September 12, 2016
Thursday, September 08, 2016
Wednesday, September 07, 2016
Tuesday, September 06, 2016
Today is day five of work. I got a long weekend my first week. I am so tired, so do not want to not have hot water right now. and, I just saw a mouse.
I hope to live somewhere nice one day, in Phoenix. Preferably not 100 years old. But still affordable. I have to finish that painting below asap, I think it will hang in October.
Posted by Carol Roque at 5:12 AM
Sunday, August 28, 2016
Friday, August 26, 2016
Thursday, August 25, 2016
Sunday, August 21, 2016
Posted by Carol Roque at 4:25 PM
so, it's ok. That is just exageration. But, you know, how life goes, and it goes without you,. Whether you are ready to go or not, it is going without you? That's that feeling, that makes me want to curse. Cus, gosh.
Posted by Carol Roque at 5:01 AM
Wednesday, August 17, 2016
Posted by Carol Roque at 3:56 AM
Sunday, August 14, 2016
Bruce Lee is quoted saying something like "do something everyday that brings you closer to your goals" or dreams, I don't remember. I feel myself dying away aimlessly when I am not doing that. Of course. Bumming myself out. And everyone around me.
After believing I am just having a day off. From trying hard at, best case scenario, making a better life...haha. Aka, getting out of starving status one day.
Posted by Carol Roque at 9:28 PM
Saturday, March 12, 2016
Saturday, December 05, 2015
I've learned that, i explain myself a lot. My memories tell me I explain myself even in my sketchbooks, not knowing why i started yet another one sketchbook. In conversation too. I only really converse with one person, not including blood family, so i get to intimately know my own self through them, I feel. and it's great to learn from. Feeling constant change recently, in my life. I'm always trying to be better. Of course I must rest too. and enjoy where I am. I want a lot of things, and I know that want can lead to dispair, but at least I'm aware of that. Anyway. I think a lot, and sometimes I want to write. I blog for myself, i love the archive feel of it. I paint for myself, I don't want to sell what I paint, often I'd rather keep it for my own eyes. I make digital reproductions too, work that ends digitally, and often is collaborative, I call it BrokeBot. I hope to update my main blog soon, and keep it as the public archive blog spot for my art work efforts. This space here is mostly just for me, a diary is what i used to call it. Please say hello if you stumble across these posts. it would make me laugh. Now I will enjoy some time, by relaxing with a good videogame. after, I will get in work mode if i'm not hungry or sleepy, and I will carry on with the business of not starving, and etc. then repeat.
Posted by Carol Roque at 3:32 PM
Friday, November 20, 2015
Tuesday, November 03, 2015
Friday, October 23, 2015
Monday, October 19, 2015
Wednesday, August 12, 2015
Posted by Carol Roque at 4:56 PM
So I guess it's time to get up now... and I just did. Here's a flower vase I painted during my time in Mexico this summer. It's acrylic on paper. Today I will focus very hard on my paint work. To see snippets of progress updates, I share those, these days, on snapchat! @brokeneyeball add me:) and believe it or not... Also on livejournal, it's been serving me as an archive, there I posted a couple more images made during my trip! brokeneyeball.livejournal.com
Posted by Carol Roque at 11:43 AM
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Wednesday, June 03, 2015
Working title. I think this is my best painting yet. Mostly because I don't usually spend that much effort on backgrounds. :)
Posted by Carol Roque at 7:19 PM
Tuesday, March 03, 2015
Posted by Carol Roque at 4:38 AM
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Friday, April 06, 2007
Monday, April 02, 2007
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Friday, March 30, 2007
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Heres a render of the old lady.. or Granny, I very quickly during my presentation on the 'project', named her Francis. I think it suits her well. This was not a great project, everything was rushed, i think. But she looks kinda cute, animating sucked a bit. I might re-work her later on (beggining at the end of the modeling process). But, next, i will prepare the guy i modeled before, for my Character Animation class, so i can animate him.
Posted by Carol Roque at 7:39 PM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Saturday, March 17, 2007
There is an artist who did a series of 'blue dog' paintings, his name is George Rodrigue. and his paintings famous.
Posted by Carol Roque at 11:18 PM